We never did play tea parties like other girls. We played
detective. Because that’s what Mercedes read, detective stories. And she was
our Sherlock Holmes.
As
children, our ventures were harmless enough. Until the day Simone fell in the
river and disappeared.
~~~
The Tilting Leaves of
Autumn
Scarlett
October 1912
I still
don’t know why they included me. The three of them were larger than life.
Simone with her madcap antics, always scaring us, always making us think she
had finally got hurt. Pearl was the princess. She was the debutante when we
came of age, as Simone would have been… Pearl dressed the part of a young lady,
while Simone had merely tolerated her trappings.
And
Mercedes, well she and I were servants. But Mercedes had a confidence even
Simone and Pearl didn’t possess. Mercedes was our leader. And not because she
was older than us. She… never wavered. She guided us, reined us in, even
Simone. Most times.
But me. I
never did understand why they accepted me as their friend. Bastille House was on the complete other side
of town. And I was not allowed time away. Even as a child, I was expected to
account for my whereabouts every moment of the day. I suspect my mamá took many beatings as a
result of the afternoons she sent me off to play with my friends.
It still
haunts me. The guilt of it torments me still.
Mercedes
and I were close, closer than the others. Simone and Pearl had been born into
gentry, and lived in luxury their whole lives. Mercedes had only just
discovered her heritage, and yet I felt I must keep childhood from her. From
the others. They’d not understand; I didn’t understand it all myself.
My mother
was a beautiful woman, kind and genteel, loved by everyone… almost everyone.
I was
little when she died, just five years old, and I didn’t know what happened
until much later, only that she went away. That’s what they told me.
My sister
was sent away and I was placed in the care of Tierney, our cook. Mon père told me to call her Mamá but I
could not. My dear mamá had gone but she’d come back for me, I knew she would.
I didn’t understand
why I wasn’t given to the care of Alice, the nursery maid. Other than servants,
Avalina and I were the only children at Bastille House and after she was gone I
was alone.
Tierney was
not cruel to me, but neither was she kind. She sent me off to play when I was
yet a small girl, I think to keep me out from underfoot; she did her best to
ensure Monsieur didn’t know, but I always suspected he knew everything that
went on at Bastille House. I suspected she was punished for it, especially when
I was older and she showed me a kindness of an afternoon.
Tierney
tutored me and Daphne’s son, Yates. Yates was the same age as my sister and
when he was older, he was sent to work in the stables. Daphne and her husband
were both servants and Monsieur felt, not entitled to education. Still, Tierney
made sure I did my lessons, reading and arithmetic and history. Her English was
not so good and I wondered that she was so adamant that I learn my lessons in
English. I wondered if that was why she was so… detached. Did she have family,
perhaps? Family she had been torn away from? I never knew.
>>> <<<
Now,
Monsieur was in a… state. Not in his right mind. And I had been party to the
cause of it.
Did I feel
guilty for it? Non, I did not.
Perhaps I should. It was a cruel prank we had pulled. It was less than a week
and by all reports, he still whimpered like a puppy in his wife’s apartments.
To her
credit, Madame Gertrude rose to the occasion. She could easily have denied him,
and I wondered at her softness of heart.
I didn’t go
back to Bastille, not in the days since Mercedes had brought me to Alés House.
It was far too risky for me to venture anywhere near Bastille, lest Monsieur
Fontaine come to himself and bring me back to his clutches.
He was so
different than he had been. Monsieur had not always been the monster everyone
else knew. I wondered, did no one else in Saisons know of his kind heart, the
generous man before… before Mamá was taken from us. Did no one remember?
I was happy
in my new position with Mercedes. Acting as her Lady’s Maid was hardly a
demanding position. Not at all like a scullery maid which I had been at
Bastille. Grueling work that, and arduous, smelly and in a small, dark room
with no windows.
At Alés
House, I lived practically as a lady, free to come and go, and to spend time
with my children.
Instinctively
my hand went to my belly. No one knew yet but my husband Donal, and Tierney and
Mercedes. Of course Mercedes knew, she always figured things out. She herself
had only just given birth so she was most attuned to it.
I was most
thankful the sickness had not been so severe, and what little I had experienced
had passed. Now, though, I seemed sleepy all day long. While Mercedes had been
most magnanimous in her gesture, she didn’t realize what she had done. And I
wasn’t sure how to undo it.
Still, life
as scullery maid had taken a toll on me in my previous pregnancies. My first
baby, named after my husband, and his brother, Max, had both been so tiny.
Jabati, my midwife, said it was from working too much, from the strain of my
position. I prayed this child would be not only healthy, but perhaps not so
small as his or her brothers.
I had first
seen Simone some weeks ago, not long after she returned to Saisons. Even though
it had been so many years, I knew it was her. Her eyes, the color of palm
fronds, had stared off into nothing. I wondered was she injured.
My
circumstance had created in me a cautious nature. I wanted to rush to her,
sweep her into a great embrace, to know was she well. I wanted to know why she
had been away and not written; why she had come to Mercedes and not myself. But
Simone and Mercedes had always been so close, more like sisters than the
division of their stations in life.
I suppose
it would have been easy for me to be jealous of Mercedes. The Dubois family
treated their servants better than some nobility I knew, as they had their
slaves before the war.
But
Mercedes was far too kind for me to think ill of her. To wit, her recent
kindness to me and my family. And for all her good will and the generosity of
her gesture, I had to find a way to undo it.
~~~
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3 comments:
Great to host you today, Robin!
Readers, be looking for this intriguing read coming out this month!
thank you so much, Eileen. it's great visiting your blog today!
Eileen, thank you so much for having me on your blog today, and sharing the beginning of Scarlett's story!
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